omg why?

Today is my fourth day with my host family. My new house is under construction so i do not have a permanent room or any space to unpack. There is no sink and wifi is hard to find. I speak absoultly no french and I have been living with my pocket dictionary. Its freaking cold!!!! It rained yesterday in August!!!! I have been living in my sweatshirt when everyone else is in shorts and a t-shirt. I do not know what school I am going to yet. It is very stressful. It is very different here. I am afraid to drink the milk because they do not keep it in the refridgerator. My home does not have a television and I have already read the books I took with me. They eat so much bread!!!! AFS tells you that you will gain weight but I have lost some because of all the bread that they eat!! Maybe that will be something good that comes out of this trip.

Stressing out

It is a few weeks before i leave for French Belgium!
I am excited and nervous at the same time.
I do not have my visa yet and i also do not have a host school.
Im also starting to think about the little things like how am I going to do in school? and
What if I dont have any friends? and the biggest one is what if I don't get along with my family?
My host afamily consists of my mom and two older brothers who no longer live at home.
I worry that I am not going to fit in. Im also worried that I wont have enough clothes!!!!!!
I am only allowed to bring 44 pounds. 44 Pounds! I have that much just in shoes!!!!!!
Once I get my visa then I think ill feel better!

About Me

My name is Sarah Madder. I am a student at Sunnyslope High School. I want to go abroad with AFS because I want to learn french and experience another culture. This sounds like a school essay but I had preplanned questions. Sorry everyone.:) Any way from this experience I plan on gaining a new insight to other cultures and a very good grasp of french! My family supports me on my decision to travel with AFS but I can tell my mom is a little sad. I know all of my friends are insanely jealous. Some challenges I need to over come are just finishing the application process! That thing takes FOREVER. Also its pretty expensive so thats a big one to. To contribute t my fundraising efforts I have been selling chocolate at school. Its not much but it helps. Considereing im trying to go the China with my choir this summer also. My what a little world traveler im becoming! XD
-Sarah Madder